lack of sense of security

i cant feel the sense of security from u .
i really want to know that "do u really love me" ?
who am i to u ?

i really wanted to care u .
but i feel unsafe to be with u .
it doesn't mean that i don't love u .
but u just cant give me a genuine answer about who am i to u .

i really cried cause of u so much times
sometimes u said that u love me much .
sometimes u said to me that u hope to be my friend only .
sometimes u said that i am your wife .
sometimes u said i am just nothing to you .

which one is your real answer?
which one should i listen to?
i am confused,i don't know what u want.

i love u much ,i care u ,i always think of u ,miss u ...
don't u feel it ?
don't u ever feel that i really in love with u ?


why u like to say something to hurt me ?
why u want to said to me softly that u love me when u were beside me ?
but after u leave ,and u changed .
i really don't know ,i just hope that u always at my side .
so that i can have a hug from u ,a kiss from u .

u said that u cant feel the touch from me .
but do u really accept the touch from me ?
maybe i am not clever enough to make u truly in love with me .
i tried my best ,but will it work ? i don't know .

i hope to get more sense of security from u